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Sep. 4th, 2011

I've got a ton to say. I just don't say it.
 done with facebook. biggest time waster ever, as well as tool to raise my hackles.


To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him. -Buddha


Meh. Aargh. Wha?

That sums it up.

Two weeks meat free! I feel great!!

Buddha Quote of the Day

"When you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky."

I'd like to call bullshit but I'm trying to be positive.


Writer's Block: Family Is…

What does family mean to you?

Family are ppl that I hate to see coming. Pain in my asses complaining or wanting something yet they insist that family is important. If family is so important to one another then why do they insist on keeping shit stirred? Talking behind their relatives back? Being jealous of what the other has?

So apparently family really means nothing to me. I told my cousin that most ppl (including him) can walk out of my front door and I wouldn't care if I never saw them again. :-D

I mean it. Needless to say they don't come to my house often cuz they, "know how I am." lol

I'm paying for it right now...

I'm tired. I couldn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned for an hour before I finally got out of the bed around two. Watched TV for an hour then went back to bed to toss and turn for an hour. I realized that its kind of hard to relax and go to sleep when my jaws were clenched. Finally I relaxed and fell asleep only to dream of my friend and her husband.

Anyway, I read some paragraphs from one of my many books on Buddhism and have refocused a little bit. It reminded me that I can't change the world and because I see things so clearly it doesn't mean others will too. And end the end...it doesn't really matter.

I have to admit, my husband coming home a year ago really disrupted my life. lol I love him but he's interrupted my flow of energy. I'm tired of the TV always being on. When it's on I'm just inviting unnecessary things into my life. Back to back to back to back. Over-stimulation, but at the same time I'm not doing shit. Just sitting there with fleeting thoughts of how I should be doing something else.

Yep. I'm really thinking of getting rid of my cable, the cable internet... go back to house phone and dial-up. I don't know yet. It's all unnecessary.

Writer's Block: Lesson learned

The transition from youth to adulthood can be smooth or incredibly difficult. What is the most important lesson you learned since middle school, and how has it guided you?

I actually figured this out in my late twenties and it has since lifted heavy burdens off of my shoulders...

People aren't going to change who they are just because they make me sick.


People are stupid. They don't think. The don't learn. They generally don't evolve beyond who and what their parents made them to be.